||[Dec. 10th, 2004|12:07 pm]
|||||the screaming inside my head||]|
why the fuck is it soooo fucking easy for stupid ass fucking bitches to get boyfriends and i cannot even get a fucking date. i am in love w/someone who doesnt know and he will never know, b/c he is not interested in me that much. or so it seems. and my ex boyfriend is already moving in w/some dumb cunt that needs to fucking die. i will kill that stupid whore. if she ever even speaks to me, i swear, i will do the same thing that i did to her boy. fuck me. i cant take this shit. i hate being alone all the time. and the guy that i am totally inamoured of, doesnt even care. he doesnt understand the affect that he has on me. and that sucks.
I was just thinking about you this morning beautiful.
We need your address so we can send you a Christmas card.
I miss your loud ass laugh, it is contagous you know.
Hey lova, lova, hey! You’re an easy one to heap buckets of warm hugs and feel good phrases on, like ‘you’re a winner kid’. So, a couple or 3 years on and we’re still alive!
I think you’re an awesome woman- and god help anyone you cannot see that, you just need to cut and defined a little bit of the world- and make it yours.
I take it for granted that you know I’m always here for you should no one else be available for you should you ever need it.
I hope the new year offers you more challenges, since you’ve shown you have great strength in your character, even if you doubt it at time. You’re great and you’ll be in my thoughts over Christmas.
You missed all the home made porn I posted Hahaha!
All my love ;) and a big ass smooch!
PS I love you baby!
thank you cutie. i am happy to hear from you!! christmas was atrocious, which was expected. damn, i missed the internet porn?!?!?! curses!! as usual, missing all the good shit. well thank you for cheering me up dear. hit me back if you wanna...
i know. i know.
my sick obsession continues..and he does not care either,
i tried to call you a few weeks ago.
i hope you are doing well.
give me a call sometime
I know EXACTLY who and what you were referring to. Anyway - you need to post more. The fact that this is from Xmas makes me sad.
Post more, even if just for my entertainment alone.
Me love you long time, hookie.